For the past several years, I have been on a quest to discover my purpose in life. I have known for even longer that God’s will for our lives is that we would know Him and make Him known by being remade into the image of Christ; that we would be a reflection of who He is.
But before that, I spent a great deal of time sitting in church, feeling like I was banging my head against a brick wall because I was not experiencing the peace and joy I heard preached from the pulpit week after week. I am not exaggerating in the slightest when I say that season of my life lasted more than 10 years. Now, I am more hard headed and stubborn than most, and from the moment I surrendered my life to Christ, I knew there was nothing for me without Him. I was determined that I would not be giving up. I wonder though, how many others have felt like they were failing to grasp what God has to offer? How many others have given up in frustration and discouragement because they felt like they were doing it wrong? Or worse, they felt like they weren’t worthy?
What I finally discovered is we need to know and walk in our identity in Christ to experience the freedom, joy, and peace God has for us. But sometimes that isn’t so simple. Sometimes we have to tear down that brick wall we were banging our head against because it was constructed with the wounds, traumas, failures, hurts, and shame of our past. We unknowingly built that wall in an effort to protect ourselves and cemented it together with our inner vows to be in charge of our own destinies. When we recognize that all we have done is create a barrier to embracing what we really long for, we can begin to make progress at dismantling it. As we dismantle it, we begin to understand the depth of God’s love for us and who we are in Him.
I’m not sure what the exact nature of the bricks in your wall are, if you have one. Mine were childhood sexual abuse (of not only myself, but my younger sister as well), unforgiveness, fear, doubt, shame, broken relationships and self-reliance, to name a few. (you can read my testimony here ). Now that I have torn that wall down, I experience God’s joy, peace and hope daily. I am transformed by His grace and I have discovered that I am passionate about encouraging and equipping others in their process of being remade. That is my purpose.
With that in mind, I would like to ask you if this resembles your story and if tearing down your own wall is a process you need help with? How can I help encourage and equip you? How can I help you live the being remade life; a life of embracing who you are in Christ; a life of peace and fulfillment?
Please reach out to me with any questions or prayer requests you may have. I’d love to schedule a time to chat with you.